The eve of my desire drew long before the barren dawn. The moon was sharp and ripe, as if pregnant with hope - yet not. Its face, while full, was empty then as joy sank from my heart, denied. So, mocking, this great irony - a night so darkly lit by loss. That gentle brush against some faint mercurial glimpse of some bright lust had soon grown cold, a vapor just - and now remains a bitter warmth. A sweet pain tortures at my heart, as thoughts of that which could have been still taunt and tempt me to indulge that they may yet be realized hence. And now is the perpetual day, that stretches out beyond refrain - is dry, nothing quenches that pain of love kept so close from my reach. No nights will once more come to claim the light of day that swallows rest - that keeps my heart from laying down the hope of winning that great gift. The wait is long and merciless, as I, unsated, must endure in patient poise, kept open still so that I'm primed when if it comes. If it comes, that welcome night to give my weary heart relief, to mend the wound of hope withheld, and hold me then in its embrace. That hope withdrawn that wakened morn, be then restored that I may sleep within the light of this new night, the eve of my desire. |